Tuesday Reviews: Chaotic by Shantel Tessier

HIS ANGEL

I was born into a secret society known as the Lords. There is no limit to their depravity. If they want to be respected, they have to earn it.

Women like me are merely allowed to exist in their world … until they no longer need us.

I’ve spent most of my life wishing death would find me. That I’d be granted an escape from the reality I was forced to endure. But luck has never been on my side. It seemed I was destined to never be anything more than a failure.

I VOW. YOU VOW. WE VOW.

Then one night I took control of my life. It was my first taste of freedom, and I wanted someone to notice me.

Turns out, that was a mistake, and my father had been right, I didn’t deserve to be seen.

A Lord—Kashton Landon Pierce—saved me, and I offered to pay him the only way I knew how—with my body. After he finished with me, I ran.

Now he’s back in my life, wanting to pick up where we left off.

The problem with that is I’m no longer the scared woman I was when we met. I’ve spent years digging myself out of a dark hole, and I refuse to allow any man to drag me back. Especially a Spade brother. Even if he is promising me everything I’ve ever wanted.

I underestimated him. Kashton inserted himself into my everyday life and invaded my dreams.

He needed a pet to keep chained in the basement. A toy to occupy his free time. His brothers were busy living their lives, so he decided to take over mine.

What I didn’t expect was for him to make me feel loved. To be taken care of and put first before anything else. After being told you’re worthless your whole life, it’s hard not to believe it.

Kashton made me feel cherished and accepted me for who I was—unworthy.

For a moment, I found myself hoping for a future that I knew wasn’t possible. One where I could be what he needed. But our world has a way of teasing happiness before stripping it all away.

Chaotic by Shantel Tessier absolutely ended me. I went in expecting dark, intense, morally questionable chaos (as one does)… and instead I got my soul ripped out at 4:41 AM. Yes, I know the exact time. Because I was ugly crying, throat tight, staring at the page knowing full well I had to be up in two hours for work—and still choosing to keep reading like a clown 🤡.

And THAT scene.

You know the one.

The moment everything crashes together and your chest caves in and you’re suddenly emotionally attached in a way that feels personal?? I was not prepared. I had to stop, breathe, cry some more, then continue like I hadn’t just been emotionally assaulted by words on a page.

This book is dark, brutal, obsessive, and somehow still devastatingly emotional. The characters are unhinged in the best and worst ways, the tension is suffocating, and the emotional payoff? RUDE. Absolutely rude. Shantel Tessier has a talent for making you fall for characters you probably shouldn’t while simultaneously breaking your heart with surgical precision.

I finished this book exhausted, emotionally wrung out, and still thinking about it days later. Zero regrets. Five stars. Would lose sleep again. Would cry again. Would absolutely recommend—just don’t start it if you need emotional stability or a full night’s rest.